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@Mouseykins Selective hearing at it's best. I'm glad to hear Kai is ok though! Accidents totally happen, yet I still always feel a bit bad. @jellysundae No worries! I get the same way some days/a lot! I'm glad you were able to get groceries, despite a lot of things being out of stock. Sorry for short replies, and not answering other parts of responses -- my neck injury (which is sadly a permanent thing and can only be treated) has been acting up since 3-4 AM and hasn't stopped since, so I am miserable to say the least.

@Duma, @ohml I absolutely love Inuyasha! It was one of my first animes I watched -- next to Big O and some other older ones. At the moment, I just finished the 3rd season of My Hero Academia -- but been caught up with other things now, so haven't gotten to the 4th season/anything else to watch. I did re-watch Assassination Classroom though!

I totally understand that feeling -- and it can last awhile. Everyone heals differently. We have most of ours buried on our property because they LOVED the outdoors as well. Most of our pets were buried in all honesty, just felt it was something they would of wanted so they could spend even more time outdoors in their own ways now. I'm really glad to hear about the services you got for cremating, it can be a lil scary since you never know what you're getting back -- but I'm really glad they had an ID and everything to ensure you were getting Mouse back! I've had a few crystals wire wrapped which look like my babies who passed on -- the crystals mock their fur and the wire wrapping is done in a way to show if they're cat or dog! It costed a bit, but was worth it in all aspects. I think I own maybe one pair of jeans, and even those get rarely worn. I'm always in PJs, sweats, or leggings too! I know I mentioned that earlier, but it's just funny how rarely I even wear my only pair of jeans -- it's just a hassle because my weight fluctuates at times too, and just how my body/height is, so I never buy them unless they seem I can actually get use out of them without having to worry about them ill-fitting me whenever my body decides to do a random change. Womens sizing is annoying either way, and I hate shopping because of it lol There was a time I almost did, but thankfully not! Only one got out that day, but he was a runner for whatever reason that day! (I think it was the smoke alarm that decided to malfunction a day before our routine checks, and our boys HATE the sound). I always feel so bad when I accidentally close a gate, door, or anything on my pups -- they're usually good at waiting, but some days they just get so pushy and rushy lol, I can understand that too. We have to do our yard this coming Wednesday or Thursday -- it's been so hot, so we've been a lil lazy again, and ugh, don't get me started on weeds!! The recycling wasn't too planned, but we had to go out and were heading in that direction anyway -- so we just decided to clean whatever was out of the room (recycle wise) and just get that bit over with. Cleaning would be easier if I just had more energy, and not ailments slowing me down in general.

Hagan has been giving me the cold shoulder lately too. I got pretty close, and then dropped again.

/Casually slides in. Don't mind me.. just gonna be winning for a bit.

Oh jeez. I've been gone for a small bit. I had a part of our fuzzy family pass that way -- and I was blaming myself for a long time due to being in your shoes (the way it happened). Eventually I was able to think that the situation was what it was, and there's no way to change it, or even know it would of happened in that way. We have a small memorial area in our home for our passed pets, so I think it's a great idea for you and your family!! I can totally understand those issues too! I'm also not the best at sewing, no matter how much I tried or attempted to practice. Things are weirdly sized for me for most of the same reasons, and probably just my height in general too. I get lucky sometimes, but it's also the only reason I mostly only own sweats/leggings -- easily adjustable whether by tightening or rolling up a few times, or just magically fit just fine. It was crazy!! They luckily didn't run off far, and stopped at neighbors we knew a lil better than most, so it at least wasn't too embarrassing to catch 5 escaped big boys. We did some recycling today to make some extra money, since we had it laying around for a bit too long -- a way to clean up some of the house, and a way to get out for a bit where there isn't too many people and it's easy to keep distance, I suppose also a way to make some extra money while being cooped up and having weird hours for work, or just none at all.

Aaaaa. I was getting better, and now he DOES NOT seem to like me lately

This entire thread gave me a good laugh lol

It's a weird thing to put together when you think about it, if it were in those fantasy graphics like in games or movies lol

@Mouseykins There was a date in May that would make me feel the same, oddly. It's been years and it now no longer bothers me, but you're so right with time healing all wounds. A lot of cliche things hold truth in my opinion! I've gone through A LOT of trauma in my life unfortunately, so my healing processes tend to always take longer. I'm sorry to hear Mouse passed around that time, and I hope within time things will get easier for you and your family! I wish my torso was a bit longer, I feel I look so awkward looking with it. It's also just hard to wear a lot of clothing without it looking weird as well lol What can ya do though? I've ended up accepting it, but still get irked about it at times. Today has been on and off, I'll be fine and then I'm not. (I know I have bipolar, but it's not really that affecting me -- it's just the current situation(s)). Thank you, and happy early anniversary to you both! The boyfriend and I have been going strong for about 3-4 years now, we take things slow still since we've both been hurt in the past. The longest was 15 years for me (combination of friendship+relationship), but one day he decided to just leave I was at work -- packed all his stuff and everything, never heard from him again. Found out he moved to another state completely to be with another, got married, and had kids. Enough about that lil side story though -- I tend to overshare sometimes lol I LOVE salmon, and freezing it was the right thing to do! Sometimes we buy something a lil before we're going to use it, or something just comes up and we don't get to -- so we just freeze it. I haven't had salmon in so long, and now I wanna go out whenever we do again for shopping and pick some up. ...If there is any, as usual with anything lately. Always have to hope not everyone decided it was the next "big craze" to buy out. Apparently baking products here are now the new thing to overbuy. Your story honestly just made my day better. I know all too well of a big ol dog running loose and not listening -- my boys have done it so many times. We had 5 at one point, and one day all 5 got loose.. and that's enough just from that bit of wording.

4. *quietly writing on paper*

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I have trouble myself, so many times. I think mines just my brain is always too overactive and jumbled up. (Woo anxiety+other conditions)! I get my days where I can do it, but most of the time -- nope. I have done the thing!! I'm not always active on IG, but that just means I'll have more to look at.

Yes!! I didn't know how to fully explain it, but you did perfectly -- thank you! Next trip out, I'll need to see if I can find the ingredients -- if everyone hasn't panic bought that stuff yet... I have an IG! So I'll be sure to look him up and give a follow -- all of that sounds right up my ally, and it's indeed for the soul during these times!

@Duma Oddly, I don't think I've heard of that! Maybe I have and my brain is also just being difficult with it. @jellysundae Such an iconic song and just the aesthetic of the dragon, I usually remember things that way too -- even if I never possibly saw it personally!

Today is also a lil hard for me, this month & date is a constant reminder of something in the past now -- but a hard decision I needed to make for me and the other party that was involved. Here's to hoping I can make it through the day in one piece, and one day this won't affect me as badly. My in-laws did stop by and drop off a shower chair for me -- we were having a hard time to find one that isn't too bulky and such for our shower, and since I have a few problems, it's hard for me to shower normally. It fits, and is perfect size for me! (I'm also like 4'10", but my legs are long and my torso is short, it's such a weird combo)! I was able to set up my appointment for 1st of May (which is also my birthday), but I did it! All that's left is the video conference on that day. It happens so much to us too, pups or just clumsiness, but it really just was the icing for me yesterday. --- Small edit! @jellysundae I'm really thankful for you all -- sometimes talking to others that aren't in my everyday life in person is easier. (There's no problems here IRL, but different opinions and such is never a bad thing). That bread looks amazing, and I'm totally saving the recipe!! Your variation also sounds absolutely amazing, might have to try it both ways.

@jellysundae I honestly can't remember if I have or haven't -- I deff know about it and can recognize it, but my brain just fogs up when I try to think if I have or not. ...Something to do during quarantine I suppose!

The hat position is really irking me, but the colour is really cute imo!

Hit a nerve with that one it seems, even goes as far as to give an F- Well, even I got an F- today, I clicked a wrong part of my response, and didn't realize until I already entered it. Oh well, there's always tomorrow!

If I'm being honest -- today has been extremely awful for me. It's things I can't really go into detail on the forums for a number of reasons besides just personal turmoil stuff -- and I honestly just feel horrible at this moment. I hope all of you are having a better day, and I'm really appreciative of everyone's kindness and warm welcoming here. The forums have become a safe place of sorts for me recently, and I can see it staying a place where I can take a breath and know I'm safe here. @Mouseykins I agree on them just pulling that card because it's easier, but I still really dislike they even do that. They're a doctor, it's their job, and it seems some only did it for the pay. I know it's a lil rude to say, but my mom has given her entire life dedicated to the medical field, and has always taken the time for her patients -- even if it got her written up. (Which is honestly really stupid). She's retired now, but she was such a good nurse, and even more. I feel like I'm going crazy a lot of the time because so many haven't taken the time to listen to me, and keep blowing it off. I am thankful I have found a few doctors for some of my issues. I have to make a video call with one of my doctors from my hometown, since I am stranded in another state cause of the current pandemic and the restrictions. I am very nervous because I have anxiety with video calls and making calls on the phone as is, so I'll try to tomorrow with my boyfriend beside me. It's mostly just to chat how my current meds are working before they initiate a refill, and to see if I should be changed to something new, or high dosage, or keep the same. ---- The mirror on my wall ended up falling cause of a mini earthquake loosening it a few days ago, I suppose, and that shattered and broke. My glasses semi broke today because I was in such a foggy state of mind, I didn't realize they were where I was about to sit. The boyfriend luckily repaired them enough so they're usable, and luckily the lenses didn't crack or anything -- still angry at myself for it because I can't do much of anything until I am back home. We went out for food today because neither of us were in the mindset to be cooking, and I ended up dropping it as soon as I got in the door. Not much fell/got ruined, but it was still just the /current/ icing on the cake for the day so far. This got kinda venty, but it was really the only stuff I was able to share out of my day that wouldn't be too personal for the forums.

Not really an achievement achievement, but trying to get/find a Har Codestone so I can pay for a course, and then be able to withdraw myself so I can re-enter The Academy. (I'm wanting to work on my pets level)!

I'm going to keep trying myself tbh! Edit: I'm getting better, I got a B today, so it's an improvement!

@Mouseykins There's not much breeze here, just extremely hot still. Aaaaa. I cannot stand it lol Though I know exactly how it feels to try cleaning up anything outdoors when there's a breeze, it just makes more of a mess than it's worth at that point. We had two weeks of rain, and now nothing, and I want it to rain again just because I love the rain, and it also kinda helps with the heat here. I totally know the feeling of doctors dismissing things, I was told that about my PCOS for YEARS until someone finally took it seriously. I've also had issues with my other diagnosis getting thrown out the window, but I'm finding doctors/therapists that will actually listen to me, and know it's not just my "hormones" because of being a woman -- I seriously loathe that card they pull, and they do it quite frequently. I've been using a steroid based cream myself, but already forgot the name of it, I think it's the same one you got! It's so hard for me not to "overdo" washing my hands, or cleaning anything, but I at least can calm whenever it's irritated. We're actually using the same hand soap! It was a pain to find, but we did end up getting lucky! It truly is, and it's not even cause we're slobs honestly. People get busy, things pile up, and half the time we don't even have the time to spare to clean it up. You're totally right it gets done eventually! Some people just choose to ignore the facts lol Sorry I got a lil ranty, but so many people don't get it like you and I do. Later on she will come to understand and appreciate it, I'm sure! It's better to be safe than sorry, and I wish other parents would follow what you're doing honestly. (I'm sure a few are, but some seem to be ignoring the seriousness of what's going on -- parents or not). My father was the same with me though, and would make up lil stories so I wouldn't question too much lol All in good meaning though. If you still have the free course link(s) would you mind sending me them through a message? I'm having a difficult time finding anything free, and maybe I'm just overlooking, but it'd be nice for me to do something like that too while I wait til the times right to attend school again! Forensic Science is awesome, and there's so many sub-categories of it too! I type super fast too! The boyfriend (and my father) always are shocked, and ask how I'm even capable of it -- even without looking at the keyboard. I would always just say it's a woman thing.