April Posted March 28, 2012 Share Posted March 28, 2012 I'm going on a hiatus. I don't know how long it will be, but I am aiming for permanent. Though, it probably won't be. I'll probably cave. I'm going through a really tough time, and not with just my dog. I've been struggling with depression for a long time and I can't control my emotions any more and feel very angry all the time. I can't control it. And something as small as someone correcting me can set me off. Or even someone disagreeing with me. My anger's become really extreme, to the point that even small posts or topics just get me in a rage. It's no one's fault, I'm not placing blame. It's just frustrating to be angry, especially when I know I really don't have a reason to be. So I feel that it's best for me to stay off this site, neopets and the internet in general. I don't want people to get the wrong idea about who I am as a person, because I'm normally very nice. But it's hard to pretend. I do it all the time. On the internet, because when a stranger asks how you are, you don't tell them the truth. At least, not many people do. And it's tiring. I'm retreating to be a hermit in my house again, if only I could sleep for the next few months. XD Not sure why I'm making a board, I don't have any friends on this site that I talk to regularly, but for some reason, TDN has been a part of my life for the past few months, it feels right to say good bye to it. :) So good luck! And I may talk to you all sometime again. -_- Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tedhaun Posted March 28, 2012 Share Posted March 28, 2012 Quitting TDN? I'll miss seeing you on here. :( Will you still be on Neopets, or no? I'm just wanted to know is all. If not, good luck on your further endeavours and I'll miss your presence. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Angeló Posted March 28, 2012 Share Posted March 28, 2012 sorry to see you go ... u are a really nice person i dont like to say goodbye to anyone ... and i hope u'd stay ... but i wish you all the best and hope to see u again sometime when u've resolved all ur issues /// things r bound to get better :) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
April Posted March 28, 2012 Author Share Posted March 28, 2012 I won't be that active on neopets any more, but I will check two of my sides hopefully every couple days as in one, I run a roleplaying guild and my co owner is going away for a few months, I can't leave everyone hanging. And the other, I've promised my friend to help with her guild and I've never broken a promise. Thanks guys! Everyone on here is so nice, and I am sorry and a little angry at myself that I'm letting small things anger me. But this is something I've been dealing with for awhile and just been ignoring it. I guess it's time to face it now and get back on track. And I'm not sure it's quitting. I'd like to quit, because I am starting University and honestly feel embarrassed about even using this site or Neopets but it's a guilty habit so maybe when I'm feeling better, I'll be back. I may even be back by next week. I have a few appointments that might help. :) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Mouseykins Posted March 28, 2012 Share Posted March 28, 2012 I'm sorry to see you go :( Being depressed all the time is rough and it takes its toll on a person. Take care of yourself and don't worry about us, we'll be here when/if you come back. We'll miss you around the forums :) If you ever need a non-judgemental person to talk to or just to vent I'm here :) just send me a PM and I'll get back to as soon as I can. :) If I don't see you around, good luck in University. Best wishes! Take care of yourself! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CrazyBiscuit Posted March 28, 2012 Share Posted March 28, 2012 I've been struggling with depression for a long time and I can't control my emotions any more and feel very angry all the time. I can't control it. And something as small as someone correcting me can set me off. Or even someone disagreeing with me. My anger's become really extreme, to the point that even small posts or topics just get me in a rage. It's no one's fault, I'm not placing blame. It's just frustrating to be angry, especially when I know I really don't have a reason to be. So I feel that it's best for me to stay off this site, neopets and the internet in general. I don't want people to get the wrong idea about who I am as a person, because I'm normally very nice. But it's hard to pretend. I do it all the time. On the internet, because when a stranger asks how you are, you don't tell them the truth. At least, not many people do. And it's tiring. I'm sorry to hear about what you're going through. I know it's cliché to say I know what you're going through, but depression and the difficulty I have talking to people I know at the moment is why I started playing Neopets again... and why I visit here. It is tiring to pretend everything's alright, but it's also tiring to feel completely alone, sad, and that life has had all the positivity drained out of it. Neopets and TDN is my "happy place", I suppose, and I wish it could be yours too, but I've left many a forum over the years for the reasons you mentioned so there's no judgement here... I just wish things could be different for you. Take care of yourself, April. If you ever feel that you can come back then we'd all be glad to hear from you. Best of luck. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Xepha Posted March 28, 2012 Share Posted March 28, 2012 Hi April, Sorry to read that you will be taking a hiatus from TDN. I'm used to see you around here! I hope the best for you, and that things will go back to their normal state. You deserve to be happy, so please know that we are all keeping you in our thoughts so your mood can improve over the next few weeks. <3 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Spritzie Posted March 28, 2012 Share Posted March 28, 2012 I'm sorry things are so bad for you April. :( I totally understand you needing a break, it's probably for the best. Spend the time taking care of yourself, that's what's most important. As much as we'll all miss having you here, we want you to start feeling better. Hopefully you'll be back with us when you're ready. :) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Nataluna Posted March 28, 2012 Share Posted March 28, 2012 *hug* April i wish you all the best starting university and with everything else in real life :) *hug* for myself i have struggled the last several years with depression also, and became a bit of a recluse and other stuff from all my friends and family during the worst parts.. its hard. and i wish you all the best dealing with it, its something i feel i will never be rid of, but i have to admit its a lot better now. words can't adequately describe how much i hope everything will improve for you :) i'm doing a really rubbish job but please know that we all hope the best for you, *hug* Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Saxen Posted March 28, 2012 Share Posted March 28, 2012 Sorry to see you go hun :( I'm very much the same with my anger stuff which is why I haven't been posting too much of late. I understand why you're leaving and it's probably a good idea if you feel like you need a break, but I do hope you'll feel better enough to come back at some point. Good luck with University, I'm sure it'll be awesome! (and you never know you may find some secret Neopians :P) xxx Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bubbleline Posted March 28, 2012 Share Posted March 28, 2012 Aww, sorry to see you go! I hope you start feeling better soon and come back to visit us sometime. Best of luck to you :) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lilshadowdweller Posted March 28, 2012 Share Posted March 28, 2012 Awe, I think I kind of understand how you feel. I get angry/upset when someone attempts to correct me, too. I even try to say; "They're just internet people who don't know you, what's said doesn't matter", but it still ends up mattering to me anyway. Sometimes, when if/I fight with someone hear, I feel anxious - so it effects my reality. I'm sorry to see you go. I will just say this: It doesn't matter if you're in College/University playing Neopets. I mean, I've graduated from College and I still play. You don't have to share the information with anyone and even if you do, why would your friends care? Anyway, I wish you all of the best and do hope you consider coming back. I think it's really cool that you know so much about yourself and you're trying to deal with your issues. I should use you as my own inspiration. Spritzie and hrtbrk 2 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GuardianAwesome Posted March 28, 2012 Share Posted March 28, 2012 It's sad to see you leave, but if it's truly for the best then good luck to you. I really hope you can feel better; depression is no easy challenger. :( Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
passiflora Posted March 28, 2012 Share Posted March 28, 2012 Awe, I think I kind of understand how you feel. I get angry/upset when someone attempts to correct me, too. I even try to say; "They're just internet people who don't know you, what's said doesn't matter", but it still ends up mattering to me anyway. Sometimes, when if/I fight with someone hear, I feel anxious - so it effects my reality. I'm sorry to see you go. I will just say this: It doesn't matter if you're in College/University playing Neopets. I mean, I've graduated from College and I still play. You don't have to share the information with anyone and even if you do, why would your friends care? Anyway, I wish you all of the best and do hope you consider coming back. I think it's really cool that you know so much about yourself and you're trying to deal with your issues. I should use you as my own inspiration. Great response, I agree with this 100%. :) I'm in university and the only reason I do neopets and the like is because it's a sort of de-stresser - but if you find it to be the opposite that's completely understandable. Best of luck to you in the future! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Blumaroo Posted March 29, 2012 Share Posted March 29, 2012 Awww we'll miss you April! Hope everything turns out well! :) Best of luck! :) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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