Naamah D. Posted February 25, 2015 Share Posted February 25, 2015 Remember when I said that I was considering anti-depressants? I have an appointment scheduled with a doctor to talk about it. My mom thinks that I need one. I spent half of my afternoon today crying in my bed until I feel asleep. I am nervous about weight gain. If it happens it happens. What's more worth it, being a size 20 and staying there forever or gaining to a size 26 possibly and being happy? I'd rather gain some weight and smile without faking it than keep going in the direction that I'm going in. I used to be a very rational person, but thanks to being sad all the time sometimes I snap and say not so nice things about people. I've been constantly talking about my video games being taken away. My mom wants to talk to my doctor about it. Video games have been keeping me happy and getting me through everything. I got so irrational that I actually bagged up my PS3 and video games in trash bags and actually thought about throwing them away and getting rid of them. Then I realized how stupid I was being and unpacked everything. Due to what's going on right now, I barely have the energy to pick up my 3DS. I played video games today and it made me feel better, but thanks to being fearful about my video games being taken away I feel like if I play them, I'm giving myself a false promise. Maybe an anti-depressant will eliminate those fears. I also having been eating so great. I either overeat or I barely eat. I've only eaten 740 calories today. This morning my mom actually said have a snack because I had only consumed 360 calories. I'm in a mess. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
leverhelven Posted February 25, 2015 Share Posted February 25, 2015 Don't worry about weight gain. It's a common misconception that anti-depressants cause weight gain, but that depends SO much on the kind of medication, its generation, the person taking it... You can actually LOSE weight (that's what happened to me) or just keep your normal weight. Relax about it. Anti-depressants won't eliminate your feelings, they won't make you numb nor solve all your problems in a blink: it's like they'll slowly help you put things in their places again. I always felt as if our minds are a puzzle, and depression messes with the pieces; medication helps us rebuild the puzzle piece by piece. If you used to be very rational, the meds will probably help you become very rational again. I've been taking anti-depressants for more than six years. If you need someone to talk to/ask questions, feel free to message me anytime. I'll be more than happy to help. :) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
fromalullaby Posted February 25, 2015 Share Posted February 25, 2015 Topamax caused me to lose weight, always remember- especially on medicine, drink water often! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
lorasnora Posted February 25, 2015 Share Posted February 25, 2015 I have major depression and it took me a while to find a medicine that helped. Some medicines can cause weight gain, but not all of them. I am on Effexor XR and it works okay for me (better than other medicines I've been on), but I still am depressed most of the time. Medicines aren't a cure, but they can help. Before I was on Effexor, everything was an effort...I didn't like anything. Now I still have times that I feel like that, but it's less often and less severe. I hope you can find a good medicine that helps you. It is important to find a good therapist too and sometimes finding a good therapist can take a while to find (just like finding a medicine that helps). I'm 42 and have had depression for as long as I can remember, but doing things that make you happy (like playing Neopets!) can help. :) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Naamah D. Posted February 25, 2015 Author Share Posted February 25, 2015 What really sucks is that my brother thinks that I'm a bad person. I was in a good mood for three days and he told me that three days isn't enough and I'm bad all the time. Then he tells me that I don't deserve my mom. I actually read up on some anti-depressants and some of them do cause weight gain. My mom took celexa and she said that she didn't gain weight yet I read up on it and a lot of people have gained weight from it. There aren't many women's clothing stores that carry above a 4x or a 26. Wearing women's clothes, tons of jewelry, loads of makeup and painting my nails until they get brittle has become a huge part of my life and I can't lose that. A 4x or a size 26 might as well be the "cut off" size for fashion because not many stores have a size above a 4x or 26! Forever 21 doesn't even carry above a 20 and that's where the "girly girls" shop. I identify as a girly girl and my brother told me that I'm not and my cousin is girlier than me. All because I'm not skinny like her doesn't mean I'm not girly. I actually took a quiz to see if I was a girly girl and he said that I lied. Maybe a size 26 can be girly, but my cousin is skinny so she is girlier than me. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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