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it's not going as planned I guess you could say... my girlfriend of 4 years recently died... it was a car crash. It was the last days of Summer... I knew I wouldn't see her as much since school would be starting... but now not at all :'( I just wish I could have somebody to talk to about this... and I figure somebody here must know what I'm going through. >_< I mean none of my friends do so I figured there's a lot of people here... somebody must know what I'm going through. ugh... I haven't been able to think straight since the accident but I really do try to. All I need is somebody who understands my pain :(

 

EDIT: and if it would help here's my MSN: [email protected]

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Oh. My. God.

 

I don't know if any of us could sympathize with the amount of pain you are going through. Reading what you just wrote tore a hole through my heart.

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I couldn't of said it better myself...

 

That's just horrible, the more I think about it the more I think that could easily happen to one my freinds, my parents, or my gf...

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I guess I can empathise with what you are going through, I went through it too. Unfortunately there isn't much I can say or do that will help you or make you feel any better. I am lucky to be where I am today and when it happened to me I didn't think I would ever be OK, I couldn't think about anything else than myself and what I was going through. Everyday was a struggle, the funeral was absolutely heart renching, nothing absolutely nothing could make me feel any better. But in saying that I had to go on, I had to live my life and although I grieved and although it was sad and although I didn't think it would get any better I had to. I asked myself the same questions everyday and blamed myself for his death, but in the end I realised that it wasn't my fault and that if he could be there with me that day he would not be impressed with the way I was behaving. I had to pull out of my slumber and I had to live everyday as it came. I thought about giving up and letting everything go, but Jason would have been 100% disappointed and upset with me had I done that and I couldn't do that to my Family, esspecially my Dad. I thought about what Jason would say and do if he could stand beside me and I knew that he would not want me to live like I was (cliche huh?) But it was true.

 

I know it is hard and I know how you feel. Trust me when I say that you need to take the time to grieve and the time to heal. You need to have support and you need to cry! Crying was the best thing I ever did (try crying in the shower, no one can hear you and no one can tell you have been crying afterwards) and time is a very good healer. You will never be able to replace her and don't try, because it doesn't work. Hold onto the good memories and think about them as much as you want or can.

 

I am sorry that I can not be more helpful, unfortunately there is nothing much we can do. All I can say is that you need to grieve and once you are done you will start to heal, it almost happens without your knowing it. Think about her and think about what she would want you to do and trust me as much as you love her and as much as she loves you, she doesn't want you to give up your life and she will want you to be happy again. Don't try and go through this alone either, take all the support you can get and lean on people when they offer (but not too much). Support doesn't mean you have to talk, you can stay silent while you grieve, but you will most probably have to talk to heal.

 

Let me know if you need anything else *hugs*

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wow. i dont know what to say. thats so sad....i dont know if i can help at all, but i feel sorry for you.. :crying: and you should cry, that helps. *hugs you* hugging helps too.

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